"because whisper it…sometimes I don’t want to be present in my reality. Sometimes I want to be far, far away." Just being honest with one another about these feelings, as they will almost surely come at times--is a gift.
Thank you for this deeply relatable commentary on mothering. I feel similarly, and sometimes sneak a headphone in and listen to a podcast while we play with blocks. I’ve often described those granular tasks as understimulating and overstimulating at the same time.
I second all of this tenfold. I love my child to pieces but every one of my intentions to hold off on ipad / teach her french / read her 10 books a day have failed miserably for a reason I am still trying to grasp. The worst part is all the rhetoric about the first 5 years being "foundational" to their development, which always sends me on a guilt trip to mommy hell. Anyway, thank you for writing this.
"because whisper it…sometimes I don’t want to be present in my reality. Sometimes I want to be far, far away." Just being honest with one another about these feelings, as they will almost surely come at times--is a gift.
Thank you for this deeply relatable commentary on mothering. I feel similarly, and sometimes sneak a headphone in and listen to a podcast while we play with blocks. I’ve often described those granular tasks as understimulating and overstimulating at the same time.
I second all of this tenfold. I love my child to pieces but every one of my intentions to hold off on ipad / teach her french / read her 10 books a day have failed miserably for a reason I am still trying to grasp. The worst part is all the rhetoric about the first 5 years being "foundational" to their development, which always sends me on a guilt trip to mommy hell. Anyway, thank you for writing this.